Writing
Everything I've written — journal entries, reflections, and ideas — across all areas of life. Honest, imperfect, evolving.
May 29–30, 2026 — written from a café under Taipei 101, finished somewhere over the Pacific Two days, mostly spent in a…
Tried something different today. Instead of using Focusmate — my subscription's long over anyway — I decided to make my …
My brother and I went to the investigation center today, because there's something that went wrong and we needed to talk…
Went to the dentist today to get my teeth checked and cleaned. My dentist — who's a friend of my dad's — didn't charge m…
End of a long hot day in Taiwan. Right now I'm just super tired — could honestly go to sleep right this second. I didn't…
So today is actually my 10,000th day. And how fitting that it starts in the Bay Area and ends with me landing in Taiwan …
Journaling on the plane right now. Just took a nap. Before that I was talking to the person sitting next to me — an aunt…
At the Campbell library today. It just opened and there are already a lot of people here. It's a nice library overall, t…
Just watched "Swapped" on Netflix with Jordan, and damn — that movie just feels so wholesome and real and good all the w…
Jordan and I went to San Francisco today. Along the way there was so much traffic it took us about 1.5 hours to get ther…
Yesterday ended with a lot of emotional dysregulation and a lack of coregulation, going back to a pattern in my family t…
I'm at the MET's European wing café right now, doing work on my laptop, and I must say — this feels wonderful. Got the …
This morning had a few moments where it was hard to emotionally regulate. The first one was in the elevator. We'd lost …
It's so hard to feel good about a project I can't yet see the end of, and when there are so many voices around me asking…
Claude reset my weekly limits today, so now I'm back at 0% used on the Max plan — which resets again on Monday. Which me…
Sitting by the lake next to Castle Rock in Central Park right now, doing work. And it actually feels good. The lake is …
It's 11:59 pm and Jordan and I just got back from watching Hamilton at Broadway. Man. I've watched it twice on Disney+ …
Writing this from the New York Public Library — the Rose Main Reading Room — at 3:32 in the afternoon. And between the s…
It's midnight. I have so many entries left untouched, and at some point I'll have to go back and fill them in. But a par…
Was watching Young Sheldon and got stuck on this thought: if someone like Sheldon can exist — someone obviously, convent…
Got triggered again today. Not dramatically — just one image, one old thread, one reminder of a past arena, and suddenly…
Sometimes a person does not realize how much an old story still lives in the body until some small artifact brings it ba…
I reread my review of Past Lives today and… yeah. I was definitely still a little triggered. There's still some emotiona…
I watched Past Lives tonight. Alone. Well — not entirely alone. Bear was there, curled up like a quiet witness, and I wa…
There's a certain kind of afternoon quiet I've started to recognize — the hours right before Jordan gets home, when my b…
Jordan and I started watching Young Sheldon tonight, and I couldn't stop smiling at how many little overlaps there were …
Spent most of today at my place, trying to clean up and take pictures so my brother can rent out the main bedroom. Had t…
Went to the hospital today to get my TwinRix vaccine. Sitting in that waiting room, I figured today's as good as any to …
Drove to the lake house today. Beautiful, honestly. And I still felt that itch to keep working — like I hadn't done enou…
Great work day. 💪 I put money into my Roth IRA before the deadline, redid my resume, elevated my LinkedIn (added a Sun…
Quiet day. Not exciting, but good — the kind of good that's easy to overlook if you're not paying attention. I woke up …
Today feels... okay. 🙂 The server I've been on shut down today — last day before the reset — and I left a message for …
It's late now, and I'm tired. 😮💨 The kind of tired that comes after actually working hard all day but still feeling a…
Very late at night. In between trying to Claude-max and use up all my available tokens this week — which doesn't seem to…
I was able to sleep earlier last night! 11 pm!! And woke up at around 8:30 am 🌙. I noticed myself rolling around on the…
So, I wasn't able to sleep early last night after all. My mind kept drifting — wanting to do more things, wanting to fee…
I finally gathered all the forms and documents I need for this tax season, which is, honestly, a huge relief 📂. Lookin…
Finally caught up with my journal entries hehe 📝. But yeah, today I plan on sleeping early. Though I think I'm already …
Made good progress on the app today and finally started using Notion again to keep track of stuff, which helps me clear …
Easter Sunday. We went to Henry Cowell Redwoods State Park with Stela and her boyfriend Jerry. But first — brunch at thi…
We went to Saratoga farmer's market this morning, which was nice 🌿. Jordan got us dumplings from Dumpling King — usuall…
Bay Area day. Did some work in the morning and mid-afternoon, then Jordan wanted to go visit a Micro Center — he only re…
Jordan found my first white hair today. 😭 All the stress and the lower immune system from this past year catching up to…
Passover today, and I got to spend it with Jordan's family. Like all the other holidays I've spent with them, this one w…
Jordan's mom took me to watch Hoppers today at a nearby theater. It was kinda Jordan's idea — I'd been nagging him to wa…
Productive Monday at the comics and coffee cafe near Jordan's parents' house. I love this place. ☕ Got myself a bagel 🥯…
Crystal festival at the Reno convention center today. I was not prepared for how much I'd like it. Table after table of …
Jordan and I drove out to Virginia City today. My first impression was what you'd expect — the wooden storefronts, the s…
Jordan decided this morning that we were leaving for Reno today. Spontaneous, but the reasoning made sense — his dental …
Only 4.5 hours of sleep. I could feel it from the moment I woke up — that low-grade tiredness that doesn't go away just …
Can't sleep. I should have just stayed still when I was already drifting — the moment was there and I got up instead, an…
the focusmate session that accidentally became a pep talk
Better day than yesterday. Went back to the house and actually got a solid chunk of items listed on Marketplace this tim…
Two nights of productive, work-adjacent dreams, apparently. The night before last: I was a college student again. Big s…
Went to the house today to list more stuff on Facebook Marketplace. Got three things up, which is — not a lot lol. The g…
stable, calm, and apparently logged in a Notion database
It happened again today — that old instinct, quiet and stubborn, surfacing over Costco groceries. I was loading things …
Put on my new contacts this morning and genuinely felt like I'd been upgraded. Everything just… clear. Crisp. The whole …
Today had a particular kind of tiredness to it — not just physical, though that was part of it. I'd only gotten a few ho…
Overall, it was a good day. 🌤️ I spent a lot of time working on my new website — this website — and trying to use up t…
I've always known Carl Jung through MBTI — through the 16 personalities, the cognitive functions, the cleaner and more s…
5/5 ⭐ There's something almost poetic about a story built entirely on desperation—on moves that shouldn't work, but som…
Relationship-wise, I'm doing solid with Jordan. I've been spending a lot of time at his place, and he's been very loving…
Currently, I'm unemployed and working on my own projects, trying to figure out how to build a sustainable life around wo…
What does it feel like to be alive at the same time as multiple geniuses — and not be one of them?
A prestige television series concept about the birth of Western philosophy.
Two revolutions asked the same question — and arrived at completely different answers.
My health is doing okay. I've been sleeping consistently 7+ hours, and overall I feel fine. I've also been going to the …
Honestly, I don't fully know what spirituality means for me right now. 🌫️ What I do know is that I feel a lot more sta…
Lately, I've been feeling a bit uneasy about my financial situation. Not in a dramatic, everything-is-falling-apart way…
Currently, I'm mostly staying put in the Bay Area. Well — sort of. These days, Jordan and I go to Reno, Nevada a lot sin…
Today felt like a quiet turning point. I decided I'm going to build a personal website 🏠 — not as a resume, not as som…
Today felt oddly full — one of those days where a few small, unrelated things end up stitching themselves into something…