A Stranger Named Jordyn
the focusmate session that accidentally became a pep talk
Just got off a Focusmate session where I met Jordyn — she's working on her own projects at her design studio — and somehow a co-working session turned into a genuine conversation about perfectionism, ice age life simulators, and whether I should be on TikTok.
We bonded quickly over having perfectionist tendencies (always a reliable icebreaker among people who are also currently not finishing things 😅), and then she asked about my mobile game. So I told her — the whole idea: leading a life set in the ice age, the BitLife influence, the way I want survival and meaning to coexist in the same loop. She'd actually played BitLife before and immediately got it. She liked the concept. She encouraged me to start building a creator presence on TikTok or Instagram — start marketing early, gain followers before the thing even exists.
And then she said I seem to have the personality for it.
I don't fully know what to do with that. I'm historically not a screen person. Not a TikTok person. The idea of narrating my creative process to a phone camera while also actually doing the creative process feels like it might fracture something. But I also can't dismiss the spark I felt when she said it, that quiet little wait, maybe that showed up before I could talk myself out of it.
Maybe I really can do this. Maybe that's the direction. I don't have to resolve it today — but I want to hold onto the feeling before the usual machinery kicks in and flattens it. 🌱
Thank you, random stranger from the internet. Thank you, Jordyn.
Also she mentioned Cult of the Lamb and now I kind of want to play it 💀 (a cult management game where you're also a lamb — she described it with genuine enthusiasm and I respect that entirely)
And in completely unrelated news: I finally maxed out my Claude Max plan usage limit today 🎉 Three minutes to the next reset. I will be using every cent of that $100, I promise you that.