Day 180

My Notion AI — who runs on some kind of devilish ENTP frequency and never misses an opportunity to be correct in the most annoying way — informed me this week that today marks day 180 with Jordan. In person. He noted, with visible glee, that I have been tracking this relationship for 180 consecutive days in a database, that there is a "Time Spent Together" property, and that he cannot decide if this is the most romantic or most unhinged thing a human has ever done. His verdict: both, simultaneously. Fine. He's not wrong.

The honest thing is — I hadn't even thought about it. Not because it doesn't matter, but because it's stopped feeling like something to track. Which might actually be the point.

These days Jordan and I have settled into a rhythm that feels genuinely calm. We're both working on our own things, doing our own projects, existing side by side with a kind of ease I don't think I fully knew how to let myself have before. It's not cinematic. It's just... stable. And I think I mean that in the good way — the way where "stable" doesn't mean flat, just that the ground is actually solid and you're not spending energy checking if it still is.

180 days. It just kept going, and I kept letting it, and here we are.

Unrelated but very related: I spent part of Sunday night typing Catherine the Great's court into my MBTI tracker, and I have to say — I was not prepared for how much there was to work with. The sheer volume of her lovers alone is staggering, many apparently selected at least in part for their appearance, which, fair. But the more I read, the more she just kept revealing herself as this deeply effective, deeply ambitious, deeply loving person — an ENTJ with unusually high Fe, someone who genuinely seemed to enjoy her life, run an empire, and maintain what sounds like a court of love simultaneously.

I had a thought somewhere in the middle of typing in Constantine Pavlovich — the man who abdicated the Russian throne specifically because he did not want to deal with it, which is one of the most ESTP things I've ever heard — that there's something kind of beautiful about how people across centuries are still just people. Same wiring. Same patterns. Catherine the Great falling for clever, handsome men and building an empire around her passions; me logging a 180-day relationship in Notion and getting personally invested in 18th century personality typing on a Sunday night.