The $25 Banana Split

Claude reset my weekly limits today, so now I'm back at 0% used on the Max plan — which resets again on Monday. Which means I only have three full days to try to burn through this whole week's allowance. Honestly that feels impossible. What the heck. I should've just signed up for the cheaper plan this week if I'd known I'd be mostly traveling. But it's fine. I'll try to use as much as I can in the next few days. Already at 18% by tonight.

We slept in, then went to Hudson Yards. Really nice area — beautiful tall skyscrapers, that whole shiny vibe. The Vessel was closed for the night so we didn't go up it, but we went into the shopping mall next door and grabbed boba and Shake Shack fries, all on Jordan's company card. Delicious.

Later, back at the hotel, we decided to go for a walk and ended up with the most expensive banana split I've ever had. I didn't realize each topping adds like 2-3 dollars each lmao. Came out to $25. It did look amazing though, and apparently we inspired later customers to get it too hahaha. Worth it, I guess. Then we got pizza on the way back. A very snack-filled day.

Still, there are tensions underneath it all. I think part of me is dreading actually meeting my family — they always trigger me somehow, even though we've all changed. Jordan picked up on it, of course. I'm just… not quite myself right now.

I checked Letterboxd and saw that Bryce added two movies a couple weeks ago — HappyEnd and Redline — after my Past Lives review three weeks ago. So he's alive and well. He doesn't really trigger me that much anymore, and I'd like to think his movie choices this time around might be conveying something similar. We're moving on. Even with the complicated past and the anxiety about any potential future, we gotta keep moving on and live our best lives. Indeed.

And in a way I think I AM living my past lives. Of course, if I were ready to ship my app right now, things would be a lot more helpful. But there's still so much wrong with the gameplay — I think it needs a lot more work. Or maybe that's just my inner perfectionist talking again. Maybe I just need to say enough is enough and move on. Yeah, maybe.

At the very least, I'm playtesting on my own phone now. That's something.