On the Plane to Taiwan

Journaling on the plane right now. Just took a nap. Before that I was talking to the person sitting next to me — an auntie from Taiwan — and there were so many stories and so much fun in the back-and-forth that I kind of just enjoyed the conversation and didn't really mind whatever else had happened earlier in the day.

Life feels weird like that. It's almost as if humans are meant to be in connection more often, with more people. Definitely not alone, and not just with a single partner either.

Earlier today I had a moment where I flared up — kind of like my dad would do. I said "imma park here so you can stop talking about how badly I'm parked," but with stronger wording and some real annoyance and anger in it. Jordan had been complaining about my parking and just kept going, no boundaries, and I think I should've set one nicely at some point instead of letting it build. But I was also already stressed about having to leave the States — I'm flying to Taiwan now lol, and a part of me really doesn't want to. There are old memories tied up in that place.

By then I'd already spent a lot of time with Jordan — long walk, boba, Panda Express — and part of me just needed rest and quiet time to get ready for the trip. He couldn't drive me because he broke his glasses earlier in the day. We apologized and made up, but the moment did linger for me. I can definitely work on this.

The auntie next to me has some pretty funny stories, by the way. Lol. Actually — I think those should go in tomorrow's entry, since by the time she really got into them the day was technically already over.